By the time I was sixteen, I had to grow up. I never got the chance to actually be a "normal" high school kid. While everyone else were going to parties, dances, and football games, I was going to rehab and AA meetings. While other girls biggest worries were what they were going to wear, my worries were how I was going to get through the next week.
Everyone's expectations of me were so big, and I felt as if I had to meet them all.
So now, at eighteen, almost nineteen, I feel like the world is on my shoulders. Unlike other people my age, I have to worry about financial problems...my parents aren't going to pay for anything, so I don't even ask.
I don't have time to worry about the little things in life, I never have been able to.
Now I'm in beauty school, and I'm trying to find an out. However, since I have no money or any source of income, I don't know how I'm going to be able to transfer without being in major debt.
I'm exhausted. I just want to run. I want to run from school, I want to run from my family issues, and I want to start over.
I've accepted I'm nowhere near being a "normal" nineteen year old. I spend my time at AA meetings, volunteering at my old rehab, and being in school for nine hours a day.
Sure, I'm jealous. But hey, it is what it is...I grew up to fast.
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